SHARDS "Bandaids and Iodine" A Journey into healing Page 4 - New slides and advances....

I can be strong and weak without being devestated!

This thought brings with it a huge release. It has been well over 8 months since there were additions here ... so forgive my being remiss.

So, the thyroid had finished it's final slide into home plate... right ....... only to find it was rigged and blew up on impact.

I went through a phase where all the original symptomology that I first presented to the doctors got worse instead of better. Abject horror set it .. until I remembered that we'd been down this street so We (huge emphasis on the we component!) had a map of sorts. By our experience over the first years plus of this "Journey" .. we've learned how to communicate through the "grrrrrrowlies" .. we've learned the "flavor" of it and he has learned to watch my coloring and those not so gentle emotions.

At last .. we've arrived at what is purported to be "THE" top dose .. wait, wasn't that >>>>>>>>> way back there ? Oh well. Hold it! What was that? oh well. OMG .. it's true! I have patience again!!! YES!!!!!!! Not that it can't be pushed past "boom" but it's nice to be able to recognize that something inconseqential is not an end of the world issue.

Help your spouse!!!

Sit down during an UP time and find words that they can say and you will be okay hearing .. that will help to bring both of you through the tough times. It can be simple like "Hey, want to go eat?" to "I made Popcorn!".... and often just that "it's bad huh.." and open arms.

This is what laughter used to sound like!

This feeling at ease with those around me .. ah wonders!

Panic Attack is not nearly the 4 letter word I once thought

Heat .. well some things have other causes ...

So while I may not have all the answers .. I hope that I've shown you a piece of my map. Not to chart your course by, but to maybe see some of the shoals and hazards before you get to them. If it helps to be able to talk -- even via email -- to someone that has been there, feel free to contact me.